Bigger is the best but only in the chest

Posted 15.03.2005 0 1711

yep I took that from a shinia twain song but it's true. I can't beleive what women have to go through to get a guys attention! it's silly really. Why should women have to go through the loops to get a guy! ( Can ya tell I'm single ) Women have to look pretty,act the way there told, be witty and capible but also be totaly needy of theguy, ya know big strong man thing. I do admit I want a bigg strong man who isnt obsessed with my rather large boobs. Trust me they cant talk. Many a men have tried to get a conversation going with them before.
trust me it won't work. One of my exs tried to name em. dont get me started on that. I've had boyfreinds who broke up with me cause I wasn't pretty enough.heh heh I could rant on and on about bad relationships. but there in the past and my current rant is on what women do to themselves to be calles pretty by men. I do it to. recently I've droped fifty pounds just to try and get some attention from the opposite sex. I didn't work I'm still to fat, although I have pink hair now! yay!
I'm gonna wear bunny ears all next week maybe then someone will pay me some attention.

Just cause I'm short and stout, it doen't make me a tea pot

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My whole life

Posted 01.03.2005 0 1752

Ya know my whole life I've had people dependent on me. I'm the only granddaughter in my whole family so I'm expected to be a, soft yet strong female. I'm also the only daughter, I have two brothers one older and one younger, so I'm also expected to cook clean get good grades, never be sick, never have a bad day you know the usual.
That's just at home. At school I am the "leader" of my group of freinds so of corse any tiny problems are brought to me. It's not that I mind but all my freinds are "suicidal" so I have to remind them all that they are loved.
I'm also expected to be wise and funny with them. I can never tell them that I have problems, because no matter what happens, there's are always worse.
I'm sad to say that I'm finding this here too...

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Romance

Posted 09.02.2005 0 1767

Now Listening to: Boys
Now Watching: Millenium Actress.... again

I'm a hopeless romantic. I hate to admit it but I am. I always get all goo goo over sweet sentimental lines, (so hey baby what's your sign won't work on me.) I especially like this line from Millenium Actress:

I've alway prefed the 14 day of the moon. It's not quite full yet. On the 15 day the moon is complete and so, begins to wain, but on the 14 there is still hope for tomorrow. ..
Please won't you hope for tomorrow?

It's just so sweet isn't it?In the movie (ifyou havent seen it) There's a girl who falls in love with a rebel. She saves his life and then of corse falls for him. They're sitting in the shed where she is hidding him when she looks out at the window and says oh look it's a full moon. He of corse replys with that line.
In the end he gets found out in her shed and has to run again, but he leaves her a key.
She spend the rest of her life looking for him.Becoming an actress so she may travel.
The ends sad but I won't spoil that for you. We'll just say that she finds him, in the very end...

*Giggle* isn't it romantic? *blush*
I hope that I can find such a romance. The final line in the movie is: After all it's the chase I've always loved.

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Makes me sick

Posted 20.01.2005 0 1757

I can't beleive how others treat eachother. Especialy at school. You would think we could ban together as one solid teenage unit and get through this hell of a time. Un fortunatly in our search to find indviduality, we as teens have trampled over eachother. And for what? No not for being individuals as we would like to think but to become the sheperd to the entire flock.
To do this we trample and step on as many as we can to get as close as we can to our sheperd who is actualy working for the modern day gods of television beauty magazines and more.
And yet I still watch TV knowing full and well that I am supporting everything I hate about high school. Vicious cycle isn't it?

I know personally that I could not live with out Tv. sad to think yes but living in a tiny sucleuded town it is my only link to the out side world. My freinds live over a half hour away so it's very hard just to hang out.

Sad yes, but true.

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Beleive it

Posted 17.01.2005 0 1736

Now Listening to: super sonic speed

Last night I had the funniest conversation. Apparently I'm some girl named Ashley??
Okay then cause as far as I know My names Sam.
I would like to personally disclaim this theory. If you think I'm "Too Nice" or apologise too much Then well I guess I can't say I'm sorry, cause That would be fueling the so called flame.
I was also told that I am gonna look stupid on the forums, so if you think I'm "being stupid" Please tell me. If you don't like the way I act or the way I talk don't diss me, cause really you don't know what's happend to me in my life.

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Valentines day

Posted 16.01.2005 0 1710

Now Listening to: Smooth Crimanal

We all know it's coming and there is absolutly nothing you can do about it.
Many get sad when they relise that it's coming up. But there's always that hope that you'll receive a flower or gift from some secret admirer.
I know I wish I would get a flower, but of corse being what I am I probably won't but oh well. What's the use in crying over flowers. I know that my freinds love me and that's enough. (although there's still that hope)

It's hard to send a person a flower too. I mean, they might find out it was you and then you'll be so totaly embaresed if that person doesn't return your affection. I know this cause I wanted to send flowers to people but never had the nerve.
It's harder than it really should be.

And then if you acually do get a flower theres that question, "is this someones idea of a joke?" I know cause I got a "love letter in my locker that turned out to be from my tormentors, as did my freind who got a flower and was told it was from her crush, when she went over to thank him, he laughed in her face.

So for all those afraid of not receiving flowers, or who will be very sad to know yet again that they've been forgoten * holds out her imaginary flower bouquet and hands out one to everyone at C3*
I hope you like my imaginary flowers

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Posting pics

Posted 14.01.2005 0 1694

Now Playing: I'm throwing eraser chunks at people if that counts
Now Listening to: Genocide
Now Watching: people turning around and glaring at me

heh I love seeing everyones pictures but I have yet to figure out how to post them. Not really that anyone would want to see me, but I thought it might be fun. Besides I've seen everyone else it's only fair that you can see me.
Please tell me how to post!

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Boys

Posted 05.01.2005 0 1720

Now Playing: Nothing
Now Listening to: Holding out for a hero
Now Watching: My teacher yell at people playing on the computer.

Wanna hear a funny story. Laast night I went swimming at a local swimming pool. The fun part is one of my ex-boyfreinds was there. Not just any ex but the one who dummped me cause I wasn't pretty enough for him. So I try to ignore him splashing away in the pool. Go get changed then come out to shower. He's there too. Gives me the old look up and down. Says hey then gets in the shower. What gets me is that he dumped me and yet he gave me one of those looks. I don't even wear revealing anything! I wear shorts with a swim suit cause I hate my legs. They're really fat. So why did he give me that look
Maybe cause now he knows he can't have a barbie I'm starting to look good.
I don't know. I really dislike him still. For dumping me like that and infront of my class too.
Maybe that's why I'm on a highatus from guys. At least until I find a real man. I don't care what he looks like I just care that he's not a pig. oh well guess I've got a long wait. All my Boyfreinds so far have gone out with me for my cup size.

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Downward and on

Posted 04.01.2005 0 1733

Now Listening to: Americana
Now Watching: The dark room around me.

In case anyones wondering I'm on one of my imfamous downfalls. I get this sudden burst of happiness the morning before it happens. You thinked I'd be able to recognize them by now. I should probably avoid people when I'm on my ups and downs for their own safty. It's impossible to recognize if I'm having one, unless I start ranting or if I start to get angry very easily. I did that today and I'm really sorry. I offended a fairly nice person and now I'm going to have to pay the price of not getting to know them because I scared them off by being a real idiot. So again I'm sorry. please forgive me.

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Phantasy star online

Posted 04.01.2005 0 1727

Now Listening to: This machine
Now Watching: My bro play Pso

I love Pso and just yesterday I met RedKing. I don't want to judge him or say anything rude about him because I won't talk behind others backs so I'll talk about myself.
I just had a fight with him and I'd like to know why people who just met me are already judging me. Is that really fare? I know I can be hard on people though and that's not fare either. So I'd like to appologize to the RedKing, for judging him just because he was standing up for the game he likes. I am sorry for that and telling him he's just trying to show off to the other guys. but that's all I will never apologize for being innocent. that's something I can't help. I am who I am.

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